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Hey bibi. We've turned one. I'm thankfull for that. I did not ever expected that i could commit in a relationship this far. I am really happy and at the same time... lonely. People can never, or may be you too, see how blissful i am to know that there is someonewho could value me and take good care of me. I think God gave you to me so that i could learn all my mistakes and i could also learn how to get up and prove to myself that i was worth loving. I'm sorry bibi for all the pain i've caused you, that sometimes yu end up being mad at me. Hay. I'm lonely because as much as i wanted to hold you everyday, i can't. Motto: Time never permits (sound familiar huh!) Bi, what we achieved now is nothing... its just a beginning and an essential wait for eternity. (i'm being poetic again!) Neweis, i know that you know how much i love you. Maybe i'll end this one with an excerpt from a song "for the first time, i've been looking in your eyes, for the first time i've seen how true you are. I can't believe how much i see, when you're looking back at me... now i understand why love is... love is... for the first time."
Posted at 01:50 pm by mitmitandme
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Sometimes, it really takes time before you could swallow the truth behind things. There are times when you'll just close your eyes, because of the mere fact that you cannot something at all.
Oh well. Things may really become blurry. It's harder to absorb and adjust to something you do not see.
Good thing I did and still do.
I LOVE YOU MITMIT.
Happy 6th Monthly Anniversary.
*kisskisskiss*
Posted at 10:55 pm by mitmitandme
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the world's most gifted pen
cannot find word's to completely
describe what love is,
how it grows
and changes
the whole perspective of a person,
his whole pattern of living.
strange, isn't it?
scarcely a year ago
I didn't know you existed.
now I am certain you have become
very much a part of my life.
perhaps my wole life, even.
I feel that across the cons of life
even before we were both born
my soul were searching yours
through the vastness
of infinite time.
the event that someday
we shall meet,
that one unforgettable moment
i shall fall in love with you
you will have many more months
to learn all you want to
know about me, enough time
for you to know if you can reciprocate
the love i offer you.
i shall only ask one thing,
that you judge and answer me with your heart.
for love unlike mathematics is not
an exact science that can be
pinpointed with precision.
love is more a way of life
that transcends anything, everything.
it is God's priceless gift to mortals.
so please answer me with your heart,
andwhatever may be your answer
i'll know that like the woman you are,
you will answer me frankly, fairly,
from the depths of your heart.
__________________________________________________
Tonight I Can Write
Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
Wtite, for example, 'The night is shattered
and the blue stars shiver in the distance.'
The night wind revolves in the sky and sings.
Tonight I can write the saddest lines.I
loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.
Through nights like this one I held her in my arms.
I kissed her again and again under the endless sky.
She loved me, sometimes I loved her too.
How could one not have loved her great still eyes.
Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
To think that I do not have her. To feel that I have lost her.
To hear the emmense night, still more immense without her.
And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.
What does it matter that my love could not keep her.
The night is shattered and she is not with me.
This is all. In the distance someone is singing.
In the distance. My soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.
My sight searches for her as though to go to her.
My heart looks for her, and she is not with me.
The same night whitening the same trees.
We, of that time, are no longer the same.
I no longer love her, that's certain, but how I loved her.
My voice tried to find the wind to touch her hearing.
Another's. She will be another's. Like my kisses before.
Her voice. Her bright body. Her infinite eyes.
I no longer love her, that's certain, but maybe I love her.
Love is so short, forgetting is so long.
Because through nights like this one I held her in my arms
my soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.
Though this be the last pain that she makes me suffer
and these the last verses that I write for her.
anonymous***
Posted at 12:44 pm by mitmitandme
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Possessive or Protective? When a girl smiles a lot, she is indeed happy. She's proud. She's glad about life. She may be in the depth of happiness. She may be adoring someone. She may be IN LOVE.
When a girl stays quiet. There are TWO THINGS that might be goin' on: THINKING and THINKING. It may seem as ONE word, but actually it may have different meanings or aspects.
THINKING about how glad she is, how happy she is, how she loves her man, and other good things and needed to be internalized and often thought of. Or she may be THINKING about something that's bothering her mind, something that she's afraid of, something that she doesn't want to happen, something that needed to be uttered but chose not to, something that cannot be told, and things that are REALLY bothering.
Hence, a girl's complexity is really inexplicable.
I am girl, although I've been teased about being a guy, heehee, and I am experiencing this.
And now, I'll be keeping my silence. Why? Two things. I am thinking and thinking.
I am so moody. I can change mood in just a snap. But it doesn't mean I am not serious about sumn, or worst that I have psychological imbalance. It's just that sometimes, I can be sooo happy and suddenly a THOUGHT will enter my mind and TADA! my MOOD SWINGS.
And now, I am keeping my silence. Why? Two things. I am thinking and thinking.
I know I always rant about sumn. I COMPLAIN a lot. I became ANGRY and IRRITATED about lotsa things. It doesn't mean that I don't love my guy, or anything, it's just that I am protective.
I am thinking, ayt now. You may guess in what aspect my 'thinking' belongs. But I've thought about this REAL HARD. I'll tell you sumn again. And I will not say that because I am tryin' to CONTROL you. I am not...
I AM JUST PROTECTIVE.
Posted at 09:20 pm by mitmitandme
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happy yet unhappy....
this is just another thing i don't want to deal on...
the fact that i had my life telling me that things came out okay, i'm sure it wasn't perfect...
yes, there can never be a perfect thing...
but i do believe that there's perfection in love...
:) i am so happy that things turned out okay... me and me ate outside to celebrate our 4th monthsary... it is good... we had small conversations (but for us... malaki yun!) while eating and it was so comfortable having your loved one beside you... the one who always made your day so special... uggh... i really love her...
but...
): i suffered from this solitary emotion... i wanted to held her and be next to her for the whole day... i was so depressed... i want to be with her all the time but time and reality won't permit it... it really is so frustating to fight with what reality dictates...
but knowing that someone loves this sentimental jerk (haha!) is something to be cherished...
*huhu... i miss you hal...*
If I believed in paradise
I'd swear I must be there
I'd swear I must be there right now with you
If I believed in miracles
I'd know that one was happening to me
But if I don't believe in paradise
Then miracles aren't real
If I believed in magic spells
It all would be so clear
'Cause magic spells must have brought you here
Then someone tell me what is this I feel
If I could see the future
I'd see if you and I were meant to be
But I dont know any magic
And tomorrow's just a dream
I wanna believe it's love this time
I wanna believe my heart's not telling me a lie
But with you I cant deny
If I believed in paradise
... I'm there
I'd swear I'm there
But something in this fantasy is real
Posted at 12:11 pm by mitmitandme
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I did a quite sad entry the last time. And this one will be different since, what date is today? Hahaha.
Heartlove day Mitmitku. I heart you.
I know, you're waiting for the clock to turn 12 thas why you aren't sleeping yet. Haha. Good! Coz if you fall asleep again while texting me, you'll have a helluva day tomorrow. Or later...
Four months is quite long, if measured by how many days there is. But it feels like it's just yesterday. Cheesy. Otei lang naman yun kasi araw naman natin 'to. Heehee. Anyway, so yun nga. Parang ang bilis. Pero buti na'rin yun. Basta, let's not count days. Let's count how much we've gone through.
I heart you.
Although some things might have changed. I am just happy about everything.
We'll go to the chapel one of these days di'ba?
Thank God for havin' a freak girlfriend. Heehee.
MuaHugs. HAPPY-HAPPY!!!
Posted at 11:55 pm by mitmitandme
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"The light may lose its glory,
Darkness may fill the sky,
You may miss the sun and the white clouds,
But they never really say goodbye."
- Heartlove Hal...
Cheer up.
It's not your intention, I know.
I am, like, so irresponsible about this...
Sorry...
*A VERY TIGHT HUG*
Posted at 09:51 pm by mitmitandme
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Girl it's been a long, long time comin'
But I, I know that it's been worth the wait
It feels like springtime in winter
It feels like Christmas in June
It feels like heaven has opened up it's gates for me and you
Every time I close my eyes
I thank the lord that I've got you
And you've got me too
And every time I think of it
I pinch myself cuz I don't believe it's true
That someone like you loves me too
Girl I think that you're truly somethin'
And you're, you're every bit of a dream come true
With you baby, it never rains
And it's no wonder
The sun always shines when I'm near you
It's just blessing that I have found somebody like you
To think of all the nights I've cried myself to sleep
You really oughta know how much you mean to me
It's only right, it's only right
that you be in my life right here with me
Posted at 12:04 pm by mitmitandme
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Ayn's sorry...but not really... heartlove hal. (A cheesy greeting to start things off this time.)
Anyway, I am so happy spendng another day outside the house. I am with Hal the whole day. But we didn't go to see a movie or samn. We just spent most of time this day at the library...waiting to be called by the panelists. Okay. So it turned well for me. And I think it turned well for him too. It's a good thing but still things are unsure. And EXPECTING will never be a GOOD THING in times like this.
I mishyu Hal. (Aw.)
I've been with him the whole day but things did not went well for some hours. I turned into a freak again kanina. I know, I should not stay quiet whenever I feel something bad or when something's bothering me. But that's just me. I am just SILENT. I am a POISONOUS warrior. (Oops, I like the term I just used. Jeez.) Alright, what I am trying to say is that I don't NAG or RANT about things VERBALLY. I do things just like how a poison kills or works. SILENT BUT DEADLY. I know this isn't good to be bragged about. But nothing could stop me from being me, even you Hal. I love you but love this SIDE of ME too. (Anyway, I know he do.  )
Why aren't you texting me?
Grr. My fault I replied late when I got home. If it's him who doesn't reply right away I'll probably be in my disappointed-mode now. Sorry po.
Okay. I should not be leaving messages like that since this is a public blog. But this is our blog anyway, for all I care.
"Sometimes when I feel left out I remain quiet and then you'll comfort me and ask me what the problem is, I won't answer for I want you to feel out of place too just like what I've just felt."
-- ME. "Ayn"
Posted at 07:22 pm by mitmitandme
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I really don't know what else to write, since I just wrote an entry in my own blog site last night.
Hmm...Tomorrow will be the deciding factor about the editorial blahs...Goody luck mitmit. I kinda believe that you're a sure ball. Heehee. But I'll still wish you good luck. For me, things are really SURELY UNSURE. (Read my blog so you'll know.) But of course I'll be happy if things went well, but I'll not be sad either. Because you see things like that are really NOT FOR ME. My negativity turns 100 now. Hmp!
Summer class starts on Monday. I really don't know what to feel. Haha. I am not excited because it's freakin hot...(CONNECT?) But I am happy because after this summer, we'll be 4th year college students. Heehee. Ang tanda na!
HARHAR...
So anyway, it's 20 days eversince my initiative but still no vibes. Grr. I am hopeless. I know you don't get what I mean but I leave it that way for now.
Pray for me please. haha. Not that I am dying, it's just that I am dreaming.
*sigh*
mishyu hal.
Posted at 03:25 pm by mitmitandme
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